To you, my lost love

You once mentioned intentionally or unintentionally that you are not happy now, but I have no way to intervene. Maybe our acquaintance was just a joke played by the sky,, we took it seriously. When everyone comes to the world, how many people will meet and know each other, and there will be several relationships. There is no way to be elegant, and you can’t control the depth of love. You think you can grasp it tightly, but I didn’t know that I was already a frog in boiling water, and it was too late to get away. At that time, I noticed you at a glance in the crowd. You didn’t see me. Only when my friend mentioned my name in gossip did you notice me. I don’t want, this is the beginning of fate. Quiet and comfortable days, as if the sun is as lazy as people, looking at the sun at noon, it is not bold, blowing a few thin winds, inciting green leaves to play for life, and the fragrance of flowers filled the night, it adds a touch of sweetness to the leisure and tasteless life. I am afraid that when God sees the boring and quiet time, he wants to find some fun. Just when we enjoy life carelessly, let the old man under the moon lead the red line of several cups of tea by mistake, let’s become the leading role in their theater and perform a farce. I knew from the beginning that you liked her around me, but she didn’t know. At that time, you didn’t know what I thought. I always spared no effort to help you and make suggestions for you, tell you what she likes and hates, create romantic scenes for you and her, and teach you how to please her, how to express my love for her? Fate is still joking with us. When I got out of her mouth that she also liked you, you were at a loss. According to the reason, the happiest thing in life is that the person you secretly love is also like you. Such a beautiful poetic fairy tale can only be met once in a lifetime. However, you say that you are not happy from your heart. How much love has ended before the beginning, how much love has already ended and continues, and how much love is going on but also grows old. Maybe I was still young and young at that time, it is ignorant, it is ignorant of what love is. It is only to think of you as the whole of life every moment and every second, and that kind of feeling will abuse your soft heart. It seems to be near, sweet and sour, and a greeting has been lost for a long time. I don’t talk for a few days. I feel uneasy about gain and loss. It seems sweet and beautiful. It is beautiful, sweet and sad, it took a month for this mood to get confused and ambiguous. Gradually, she was separated in your heart and driven into the polar region. I don’t know what she thought, maybe she was just a passer-, there is no beginning or end. It is just a person who reminds each other of his spare time in his own life. When it is cold, when you are sick, I will remind you to remember to dress and take medicine; You can’t sleep in the middle of the night, you can call at any time, and forget the time when you talk, until the phone is hot and there is no electricity, I regret listening to songs for too long before chatting. I recall thinking about the future from the foreword now, as small as eating, drinking, gossiping and entertainment, as large as practical affairs, political affairs, and world peace. Anyone who can take it as a topic should say it. Sometimes I also know that I have more words, but I just want to hear more words from you and extend the time by 1 minute 1 second. As the day went on, you and I also revealed clues in others’ eyes. Rumors also came into our ears, but you and I didn’t care, because in my opinion at that time, there is always a layer of soft yarn barrier between us, which is infinitely close but has not been torn apart. I think it is just a tacit silence to gossip. I once thought that I would show my heart to you, but I was afraid that I would be wrong. In fact, you didn’t like me. Your feeling towards me was just that evil noun, confidante, and I was afraid that I was sentimental, I couldn’t express myself, but I lost my intimate friends. The gain was not worth the loss, so I curled up timidly and peeped silently. Sometimes I think you are the real master of love. Whenever you show some behaviors, I think you like me, you care about me, and you have me in your heart, however, things have not continued. I have to admire your control of others’ emotions. No wonder so many people admire you. Am I also a pawn in your love game, at your mercy. Are you pretending to be stupid? Finally, I was blown away by the wine that night. I really couldn’t stand such a guess. I told you. I like you, very deep for a long time, you don’t know the heartache when I helped you chase her, you don’t know my happiness when you refuse her, you don’t know the sweet hurt when you think of you casually every day, you don’t know the desolation of suppressing your feelings, you don’t know my sadness when you laugh with the opposite sex, you don’t know my anxiety when you reply the text message, you don’t know that I was at a loss when you escaped from my sight, you don’t know that I care for your strong desire, you don’t know how much I want to show the perfection in your eyes in front of you, you don’t know how much I want to know the whole of your life, and you don’t even know how much I want to give you all the good things, but all these make me know clearly, I like your reply, but it makes me feel confused and full of fog. It makes me feel cold simply. Let me think about what this means? Do you like me too? Does this mean that I am possible? Or can’t you bear to refuse me now and need time to find an excuse to fill the jam? Can you give me a delay, don’t die slowly, guess so tired in the past life, in the past life, or in the past life, I owe you something, the debts I owe, and the complaints I accumulated will come back now, in front of you, I am so weak, confused and dull, with your footprints, I will quietly dream and immerse myself in lovesickness. Later, I didn’t disturb you all the time. I was afraid to put pressure on you again. Secondly, I didn’t dare or said I was afraid. I didn’t know what kind of identity and tone I wanted to find you, just waiting silently, this kind of mood is more unbearable than waiting for beheading. Maybe we will have such experience in our whole life, early or late, the world is sour, sweet and bitter, and we must taste it in person, so as to know the true taste, love and hundreds of postures, and we must experience it personally before we know the secret. Two days later, you replied to me. Ha ha ha ha ha, I have already blurred what happened. I only remember that I was very happy at that time, and my smile was very explicit. My mouth was no longer at my command, it is probably what people say that people who are accidentally injured by happiness are always a little nervous. This good word is the warmest word I have heard so far, just one word, which makes all the accumulated emotions disappear for a long time. All the previous suspicion, uneasiness, the troubles are burnt out and turned into gray, floating away with the sound, only sweet, is this love? I kissed you and we started to fall in love. Like ordinary lovers, we want to get bored with each other all the time. We go shopping, eat, watch movies, travel, but there are people who are sweet at home. We have our warmth, the experience is the same and the feelings are different, but it is also sweet. Although suffering must be there, in terms of the mood at that time, the world is beautiful, the society is harmonious, and the life is happy, the future is bright, and everything is worth exploring and longing. After that, the change of the relationship opened many previous scruples. It felt like walking in the desert, when all the water he brought was drunk, I found another Oasis (well, what metaphor is this? Ha ha, forgive the nonsense of this happy person) you are more careful than imagined, more tender than imagined, more sensible than imagined, it is more kind than imagined and more emotional than imagined. Although I have found that your shortcomings are better than your advantages, I like you more and more. Some people can’t say what is good about the lyrics you said, but no one can replace me. No one can replace you in my heart in this life. There was a problem in my heart all the time. When I confessed to you at that time, you said let you think about it. I still don’t know how you felt and thought at that time, when you said yes, you I am want to ask, but I thought, since you have promised, everything else is not important, and there is no need to understand these. Yes, I am convince yourself like this. You can see that our doubts are in a narrow environment. We walk through the same stream of people every day, reminding us of your behavior and words warmly, and there will always be some inexplicable touches in our hearts, her disappearance has something to do with you. When she is with you, it is easier and more natural than when she is with others. I can complain and complain bitterly about grief, your considerate care and guidance made me think I was a buddy. I had the idea that the relationship between men and women was possible. We found the right time for each other in a tacit understanding. You are waiting for me. I am looking for you, my stealth, as you all know, your online is waiting for me. In fact, I know a lot of things. I’m just not sure. I don’t want to break this unknown peace, I want to know if I really like you, you told me later. Love itself is the process of getting to know each other. Each Other pulls out the thorns on his body and clears the edges and corners, just to hold them tighter, but they are also the most vulnerable. After a long time, we got used to each other. I was slapped by you when I thought I would last forever. From romantic love all over the house to ordinary life and night, you and I are thoroughly familiar with each other, and the shortcomings and ideas concealed before are also revealed. When you say our words seem to be less and less, I will know that things are starting to go wrong. One day, I find that you are close to another one. I don’t make any noise and look quietly, lie to yourself that you are just good friends. However, as you get closer and closer, we have no arguments we don’t know or kindness we don’t know. The feelings between us are really not like love, maybe now we are not in love with each other but accustomed to each other, and there is no reason for you. Now think, maybe you just like me who likes you. Since you don’t like me as much as I imagined, why can you and me reach the level of tacit understanding, and there is no need to explain the height of breaking up, am I too stupid or are you too smart? We are destined to be a couple fooled by heaven. It is a play that imitates the Buddha statue. It is too late to perform it when we just came to power, but we have to rush to call the curtain. I haven’t removed my costume yet. You have changed your role, whether your steps are too fast or my steps are too slow, your decision makes me feel that you seem clear and transparent are beginning to blur again, you are so strange that you can’t let go of your love. Afterwards, I begged you to get back together more than once. You said that you are very happy now, and you want me to send blessings. Are you stupid? It’s okay if I cut my meat and don’t bind it up. I have to pull out my bones and send them to you. Are you really so cruel? I hate you and hate myself even more. In order to love you, I lost my proud pride. I didn’t bless you in my mouth, but I silently bless you in my heart. Who told me not to let go of my love for you? If you like someone, you can lower it into the dust and blossom from the dust, dry tears moisten flowers. It seems that it is true. God didn’t joke with you. He just let me play the clown alone and fool the world! Love is always much easier than keeping love. When one day I find that love has gone bad, it is not the taste of the past. Choosing to let go is not betrayal, but I have not sunk into a better future for both sides, although I still have you in my heart, I have been rejected by you, and it is clear that this will not work. I associate with people who have been chasing me for a long time and try to take four periods of love, it is nothing more than trying to forget you who are ruthless, but you have already set up a camp in my heart and refused to leave, and finally ended up with them. I am sorry that they have no choice but to deliver myself to time, let it help me dilute the memory, because time is the best antidote to cure the wound, so that the pain is covered by the Moss of the years. Until his arrival, he was no better than others, but he appeared at the right time, after I gradually forgot you, or I played a role in Love for a long time, tired, sleepy, tired, I also need someone to take care of someone and love someone. I also need someone who can understand my heart, understand my pain and experience my love! He will hand me towel when I cry, light a lamp that only belongs to me at night, and accompany me when I need it. Time is like a flow, and it will soon pass. He and I are about to enter the Palace of marriage and meet you again. It was a few months ago, like meeting our old friend, A layer of time-added restraint and a sadness have all grown up. You said with dismay that I knew that you were a good person. I couldn’t make up for my leaving at that time, but at that time we were all small and there were too many temptations outside, you and I have been together for so long, I can predict the future life state and life track, which makes me feel horrible, not what I want, the future life is so long, I don’t want to arrange myself leisure so quickly, or my love for you can be measured by ruler. If time goes back and time goes, I think I will stay, really, ironically, in the later process, I have never met anyone more considerate than you. Ha ha, this is God’s punishment for me! Your irony is to tell me that you still have me in your heart. I know you know I know all these, but I just giggled and said that I am very happy now. You know I think the most touching love is that I love you. I know that you and I are totally impossible, but I still do everything possible to treat you well, bury this love deep in your heart and don’t let you know. It won’t cause any influence and pressure on you. It’s just a simple effort without asking for return. It’s love like this, love you, you also know that this kind of love moved me to break up with a couple. Many years later, I met in a strange city. The man asked: how are you these years? Well, it’s good. How is he? He is also very good. How are you? She is also good, okay? She just told me that she is very good. You are the smartest person I have ever seen. You know me and everyone, but smart people may not have good results in love, because true love is not calculation, not accounting, gain and loss. If you love, you just love. If you pass, you will pass. I think, this beautiful mistake will have a very beautiful pain in your heart! Life is fickle, ups and downs, but after the past, everything has been calm, no matter sad and happy, the time I read will not come back again. The persistent pain once may not be worth mentioning now, the person who used to love may have become a stranger. If you also liked me then, how nice it would be!!! October 4, 2012

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