水晶之恋

喜欢水晶,喜欢那七彩的颜色,喜欢那种纯纯的,晶莹透明的感觉,拿一颗水晶捧在手中,便会禁不住心生爱惜,小心翼翼的呵护,怕一不小心就碎了。水晶,带着圣洁,带着一个女孩错过的梦,演绎一场让人心碎的暗恋。 ——题记 (一)爱如水晶 有一种情愫 像水晶 晶莹而透明 有一种情感 像迷雾 飘渺而朦胧 有一种爱恋 像梦境 懵懵懂懂 女孩生长在一个北方的城市,却有着江南女子如梦的情怀。女孩喜欢琼瑶的小说,喜欢那唯美的爱情故事,常被感动的热泪盈眶,喜欢李清照凄美的诗词意境,禁不住暗自心伤,喜欢读红楼梦,为林黛玉的命运而感叹,为葬花一曲而泪流两行,喜欢听一首伤感的歌,让心在歌声中沦陷,而郁郁寡欢。女孩喜欢梦,喜欢幻想,也曾幻想有一份美丽而纯洁的爱情发生在自己身上。 在那一年金秋的九月,女孩考上了一所大学的中文系,随了女孩爱好文学的心意。带着对未来的无限憧憬,女孩来到了这所学校,首次离家,性格内向又不善言辞的女孩心里带着莫名的恐慌,多愁善感的性格时常让她陷入忧伤。最不能忍受的是入学的军训,女孩喜静不喜动,以往的体育课都是勉强及格,哪受过军训这种强度的体能训练,十天的军训对女孩来说简直是苦不堪言,狼狈不堪。那一天端了一个小时的正步姿势,终于让休息了,女孩刚松了一口气,谁知教练又点人唱歌,第一排第四个,正是女孩的位置。慌乱的站起身,女孩有点不知所措,不是不会唱歌,只是在这么多人面前唱还是第一次,女孩张了张嘴,却没有唱出声。这时对面一个男生站起来对教练说,我替她唱吧。女孩带着感激的眼神望了望那个男生,正迎上男孩含笑的双眼望着她,女孩羞红了脸,低下了头。由于内向的性格,对于班上的男生女孩还没有认识几个,但是这一次她记住了这个男生。男孩有着一副好嗓子,歌声很动人,女孩听的很认真,从此,男孩的身影就长在了女孩心中。 漫长的军训终于过去了,女孩长舒了一口气,对于功课女孩还是很自信的,每年都拿奖学金,女孩还有一个爱好就是写诗,于是女孩加入了学校里的诗社,没想到那个男生也加入了诗社,他不但歌唱的好,还很有文采。自从军训时为她解围,女孩的心里就有了男孩的影子,只是女孩从没有说,只是把这微妙的情愫诉之于日记,写日记成了女孩每天必备的功课。慢慢的女孩的日记里都是男孩的影子,记录着他的一言一行,记录着女孩的心情,只是女孩却仍保持着沉默。在女孩心里男孩是完美的,而自己却是平凡而普通的,女孩选择把这种情感写于日记,而用伪装的平静与冷漠来掩盖心底的情感,虽然有时在诗社里只剩两个人时,女孩可以感受男孩深情的目光,虽然在图书馆看书时女孩不经意的抬头曾看见男孩深邃的眼光,可女孩在心里说,这只是一种错觉吧,男孩身边不缺女生的围绕,可谓美女如云,而自己只是很普通的一个女生而已。 四年,就在这种朦胧的爱意中悄然度过,满满的几本日记记载了女孩满腹的深情与无奈的苦涩。终于要毕业了,多愁善感的女孩更是每日愁眉紧锁,太重感情的人总是容易受到伤害,学校的一草一木对女孩来说都是不舍的记忆,如果能把一切都装入行囊带走就好了。 就在离校的前一晚,男孩同宿舍的一个男生给女孩送来一封信还有一个包装精美的礼品盒。男生只说了一句,一切都在里面,你看看吧。就走了。女孩带着疑惑打开了那封信,信是男孩写的,当看到那熟悉的,飘逸的字体,女孩都可以听到自己的心跳。男孩写了一手好字,是书法的佼佼者,女孩曾经偷偷的留了一份男孩的书法字放在了日记本里,想留作纪念。 冰儿,请允许我这样叫你一次吧,虽然我已经在心里叫过千万次,明天我就要离校了,终于鼓起勇气向你坦白一切,否则我会带着一生的遗憾,灵魂不得安宁。我已经喜欢你很久了,去图书馆是为你,进诗社也是为你,只是在我心里你是像水晶一样的女孩,那样纯洁而易碎,让我不敢靠近,怕我的莽撞冒犯了你,所以我只有选择远远的观望你,看你眼底布满了忧伤,我的心比你还痛,多想把快乐带给你,抚平你心底的那份忧伤,多想带着你一起去看流星,并许下美丽的愿望——让我们在一起,不再分离,多想带你一起数星星,看月亮,让美丽的笑容在你的脸上绽放,多想 ,可这一切只是我一厢情愿而已,你也许从没有在意过我,就算我与其他女生逢场作戏,想引起你的注意,你都没有在意,我的心里曾经有多痛苦与彷徨,你可知道?既然这只是我一个人的梦想,就让我一个人品味这份苦涩,本来不想打扰你,可还是忍不住要告诉你,让你知道曾经有一个男孩那样的在乎你。我知道你喜欢水晶,就用我歌咏比赛的奖金给你买了一个水晶项链,就当留个纪念吧,既然我们无缘,就让我把最美好的祝福送给你,祝你幸福,记住,一定要幸福 ,读完信,女孩脑子一片空白,原来一切并不是错觉,并不是落花有意,流水无情,自己怎么会那么笨,怎么会看不出他眼中的深情?颤抖的双手,打开那个礼盒,耀眼的紫水晶项链灼痛了女孩的双眼,禁不住泪流满面。彻夜未眠,回想在一起的点点滴滴,现在想来一切都那么明了,可当时为什么看不见?好不容易熬到了天亮,女孩拿着那封信和那条水晶项链,带着红肿的双眼跑到了男生宿舍,顾不上害羞与矜持,可同宿舍的那个男生却说,你来晚了,他已经走了,这会儿该到火车站了吧,他不让任何人送,只想一个人静静的走,他喜欢了你四年,你怎么会无动于衷呢?女孩顾不上说什么,只是转身向火车站跑去,当女孩气喘嘘嘘的赶到火车站,车已经徐徐在动了,女孩一个个窗口寻找却怎么也找不到那个在自己心里千万遍的身影,火车越行越快,终于发现了,男孩的头靠在窗口,脸上带着忧伤,眼睛空洞的望着前方,女孩大声的呼喊,可火车已经很快了,只是一瞬间就把女孩抛在了后面,女孩奔跑着,呼喊着,任眼泪在风中飞扬,可却再也追不上火车,追不回伤心的男孩。停下脚步,泪凉凉的挂在脸上,望着手中的信和项链,女孩的心碎了,是命运的捉弄吗,还是造化弄人呢,让女孩错过了这场纯洁而凄凉的水晶之恋。 女孩的心迷茫了 如果爱 已经不能回头 就让我用含泪的双眼 看着你 默默的走 如果情 已经成追忆 那逝去的时光不可倒流 就让我用祝福的心 目送你 踏上归途 花自飘零零水自流,一种相思,两处闲愁 ——李清照 ——后记 (二)迟来的告白 你走了 为何如此匆匆 还没有来得及让你知道 我心似君心 却为何又负了相思意 你走了 我的泪已追不上 你离去的脚步 那么让我的心随你而去吧 天涯海角不离不弃 只是你能否感受 那颗心在默默的哭泣 终于还是没赶上那辆离去的列车,女孩手握那串紫水晶项链心碎而归,好像已经没有思想,没有灵魂,只剩一个空壳在慢慢的移动,泪已经尽了,只剩红肿的眼睛在隐隐作痛。想过要追他而去,可少女的矜持又阻住了她的脚步,这是天意吧,注定没有缘分,又怎能强求,女孩这样想。可就是这一念之差,又造成了多少悔恨! 第二天,女孩收拾行囊,带着一颗破碎的心离开了学校,没有让任何人送别,她也选择了一个人静静的离去,没有了男孩,任何人的送别都没有了意义。女孩没有听从父母的安排去做那份已经找好的安逸舒适的工作,而是一个人去了一个陌生的城市,找了一份繁忙的工作,她想让自己没有时间回忆,想让繁杂的工作填满自己的思绪,把男孩的影子赶走,可是夜深人静的时候,男孩幽怨而深情的眼睛却仍然在注视着她,挥之不去,梦里,女孩看到男孩回来了,他们一起牵手在阳光下奔跑,在田野里追逐,那串串银铃般的笑声回荡在整个梦中,醒来女孩的嘴角还挂着甜甜的微笑。可更多时候,梦里是那个离别的车站,是那辆追不回的列车,是男孩无奈的表情,是自己哭喊的奔跑,醒来泪湿枕巾。多少个凄凉的夜,女孩从梦中醒来,望着天花板发呆,睡意全无,睁眼到天明。 日子在周而复始中重复,由于一心放在工作上,女孩工作的很出色,很受领导的好评。可是在享受工作带来的快感后,却是无尽的忧伤与孤独。女孩有着清丽的外表,虽然不施粉黛,不苟言笑,但仍有一股与众不同的魅力,吸引着异性。因此,女孩身边不乏追求者,鲜花,名贵礼物,女孩都无动于衷,在女孩眼里什么都比不上那条紫水晶项链。时间在这种纠结的情感中度过,只是那种刻骨铭心的痛已经变淡,只剩一个苦涩的记忆,男孩也不再入梦,女孩也不再做梦。女孩好像已经心如止水,时间真是治疗伤口的良药。 这一天,女孩发现桌上有一个精致的礼品盒,打着紫色的包装,很别致,要以往女孩只会原物送回,从不打开,可是那天,就因为那别致的紫色包装引起了女孩的好奇,于是女孩打开了那个礼物,是一串紫色的水晶手链,当那夺目的紫色映入女孩的眼帘,女孩的心一颤,往事历历再现,女孩再一次泪眼模糊。首饰盒的旁边有一个自制的精美卡片,只见上面写着: 请原谅我的冒昧,打扰你了,我对你仰慕已久,在我心里,感觉你就像一个紫色的梦,飘渺不可把握,知道你喜欢紫色,特意选了一串紫色的水晶手链,作为礼物,在我眼里你就如同紫色水晶一样纯洁,高贵,不敢奢求你的垂爱,只想做你身边的一个朋友,静静的关心你,磊 。磊,是另一个部门的同事,女孩并没有太在意过,可看了这个礼物,磊的影子在女孩脑海里过了一遍,发现那是一个很出色的男孩,最有特色的是磊脸上总是带着笑容,好像从没有烦心的事,他到哪儿都能带给人欢笑,幽默的谈吐,诙谐的笑话连不苟言笑的女孩也经常被他逗笑。女孩很纳闷,像磊那样的阳光男孩怎么会喜欢她那样忧郁的女孩呢! 就是因为这份紫水晶手链的感动,女孩对磊也多了一份关注,两个人接触渐渐多起来,交往中女孩发现,磊还是一个很博学的人,有着渊博的知识,他肚子里的笑话好像永远都掏不完,女孩和他在一起不想笑都不行。只是,男孩的影子还不能在女孩的记忆中抹去,面对磊期待的眼神,女孩不是不明白,可是她还没有做好心理准备。毕竟是四年的感情,已经刻骨铭心,女孩还不能确定自己是否还会爱上男孩以外的男人。女孩突然有一种冲动,想知道男孩现在怎么样了,过的好不好,她想让男孩知道当年她爱不比他少,只是错过了那辆列车。这种念头越来越强烈,于是女孩给磊留了一封信,就踏上了南下的列车。 磊,很抱歉现在的我还不能接受你的爱,我要去了却一个心愿,如果我还能回来,我会告诉你一个故事,一个有关紫水晶项链的故事,如果我不再回来,那么不要等我,也不要找我,就当我是一个消失了的紫色的梦吧,我会祝福你,请你也为我祝福吧! 走进这座有男孩的美丽的海滨城市,女孩思绪万千,那种莫名的心痛突如其来,几经周折,在别的同学的帮助下女孩终于找到了男孩的家和男孩的电话,站在房子前面,女孩用颤抖的双手拨通了男孩的电话,一声 喂,哪位? 让女孩泪如泉涌,那萦绕耳边四年的声音,虽然又经历了四年,却依然没有改变。女孩以为自己会坦然,淡定的面对了,可那不听话的眼泪告诉自己还没有放下。听到女孩的声音,男孩有一阵沉默,可只是一会儿,男孩急切的声音传入了女孩的耳朵: 冰儿,是你吗,真的是你吗? 女孩哽咽的说: 是我,我现在就在你家门外 ,然后女孩听到电话坠地的声音。很快,门打开了,男孩带着不敢置信的表情冲了出来。八年了,那个曾经魂牵梦绕的身影就在眼前,女孩脑中一片空白,只是望着他默默的流泪。四手相握,感受男孩手里的温度,女孩感到有一股暖流温暖全身,继而紧紧拥抱,感受男孩剧烈的心跳,女孩的心在颤抖,迟了四年的相拥却依然那样的让人心动,泪,肆意的流淌在女孩和男孩的脸上,泪儿,相思的泪儿,飞吧,肆意的飞吧! 手牵手,走在海边,月凉如水,月光静静的照在两个人身上,海风柔柔的吹拂着女孩的长发,海浪轻轻的唱着歌。相互端详,好像要把四年的相思之情全部补上,四年了,岁月改变了当年稚气的面孔,他们都已从学生变成成熟的社会人了。有着成熟男人魅力的男孩,带着几许沧桑,那份眼底的忧郁让女孩如此心痛。女孩讲起了当年车站送别,轻轻的问: 当初为什么你不亲自问问我呢,为什么要不告而别呢? ,痛苦的表情在男孩的脸上表现: 我不敢啊,是可怜的自尊心在作怪吧,这几年我一直在懊恼中生活。可是你为什么现在才来呢,你为什么当年不让我知道你的心事呢,如果我知道,不管多远,天涯海角我也会寻你而去的。可是现在让我怎么办呢,由于父母相逼,我明天就要结婚了,她是一个善良单纯的女孩,我不忍心伤害她,可是我更不愿放弃你,你是我今生的梦啊! 听着男孩痛苦的陈诉,女孩的心像刀绞一样,迟了,一切还是太迟了,女孩这才想到男孩家的门上贴着喜字,原来如此。痛彻心扉,女孩不知道这世上还有什么痛能比得过这种说不出的心痛。痛过,心已经麻木,女孩此刻是如此的平静,望着男孩含泪的眼眸,女孩忍着泪说: 这就是我们的命吧,你不能伤害那个女孩,因为她是无辜的,也许我不该再来,我们的缘分早在四年前就已经错过了,错过的爱不可能再找回来,就让我祝福你吧 ,说到这儿,女孩拿出那串紫水晶项链,放到男孩手中,说: 这个项链注定不属于我,现在还给你,送给她,就当是你的新婚贺礼吧!好好待她,你一定会做到的,是吗?你一定会幸福的,是吗? ,男孩的泪一滴滴落在项链上: 对不起,真的对不起,我该怎么办? , 忘记我,明天继续你的婚礼,带着我的祝福,就把一切埋在心底吧,此生认识你,虽然有痛,可是我并不后悔,你一定要幸福,也要带给她幸福,知道吗!就让我们珍惜这最后的时刻吧,让我陪你到明天早晨看完日出,或许明日一别,永不相见,我们把彼此放在心灵的最深处吧,这样是最好的选择 。听着女孩的话,男孩痛苦的点点头: 但愿我能做到 , 你一定会做到的,必须做到 。再一次四目相对,让眼神缠绕在一起,不愿分开,想把彼此刻在心里,再一次紧紧相拥,让心与心贴在一起,不愿分离,轻轻抚摸女孩的长发,男孩用手抹去女孩脸上的泪水,可是又怎么擦得净?男孩吻着女孩的眼泪,冰凉的唇印在女孩颤抖的唇上,泪流在女孩脸上,和着女孩的泪一起,在女孩的脸上静静的流淌,心碎的声音在空气中鸣响。 刚入秋,风已经如此的凉了,就像两个人的心情。相拥而坐,夜色如水,无语,却又似有千言万语。这一夜,就这样静静的坐着,听着彼此的心跳。东方已经发亮,初起的太阳像一个刚睡醒的婴儿,带着红红的脸颊,在海面上跃出,徐徐升起,霞光照在两个人的脸上,终于了却一起看日出的心愿,尽管带着没有未来的苦涩,可是女孩满足了。新的一天开始了,可是新的一天里却注定没有了彼此,女孩明白,是自己该离去的时候了,不舍,千万个不舍,也终将离去,这是注定的宿命吗? 再见了,我无缘的恋人,再见了,我青春的梦,就让我带着你的微笑离开吧,就让你带着我的祝福走进结婚礼堂,就让我的祝福伴你以后,无我的人生路,就让你的情意温暖我,无你的旅途,愿幸福能常伴你左右! 带着一颗苦涩的心,又回到这个城市,站台上毅然站立着磊的身影,不知道他是怎么知道女孩的行程的,看着磊憔悴的身影,坚定的眼神,女孩的泪夺眶而出,磊只是微笑着接过女孩的行李,眼神中带着几许沧桑,几许牵挂。 我知道你会回来的,所以我每天都在等 ,女孩歉疚的看着磊: 你怎么那么傻呢,如果我不再回来呢? ,磊摇了摇头: 我相信你会回来的,就算你不再回来,我也不会后悔,只是会心痛,可是还是要感谢上帝,你回来了 ,一向乐观的磊眼里竟含着泪花。女孩感动的泪再次流下,动容的说: 谢谢你,对不起让你难过,记得我说过如果我回来,我会告诉你一个故事,一个有关紫水晶的故事,现在你还愿意听吗? , 当然,我愿意一辈子听你的故事,只是希望你不会再消失,只是希望我会成为你以后故事中的主人公,让我们从新编写新的故事吧!只属于我们俩的故事 ,看着磊期待的眼神,女孩有些慌乱,不知该怎样回答,只是默默的说: 对不起,磊,我现在不能承诺你什么,或许今生你只能听我的故事,却不能进入我的故事,也或许未来会有属于我们的故事,我不知道,给我点时间,好吗? , 会的,我会一直等下去,就算今生只能做你故事的听众却永远进不了你的故事,我也无怨无悔。 女孩欣慰的笑了,尽管眼中还有闪闪的泪光。 如果相爱 却注定是错过 那么就让我和泪 吞下这颗苦果 如果相爱 却注定没有结果 就让我把往事沉淀 在心灵的某个角落 希望 当有一天风吹波动 往事再提 留下的不再是苦涩 赞 (散文编辑:散文在线) 凤凰山春游 等明艳梳妆打扮完换好有机玻璃纽扣西装,家里挂钟的时针已经指向九点。我跨起装有中午… 走进六月 在夏蝉的欢歌声中,在夏日醉人的晚风里,我们又一起走进了六月。走进了这个记忆着我们… 林家巷 林家巷 一次,我路过宜宾,因为转乘飞机需要在宜宾呆近5个小时,由于对这座城市不熟悉… 林家巷 林家巷 一次,我路过宜宾,因为转乘飞机需要在宜宾呆近5个小时,由于对这座城市不熟悉… 夏夜的迷茫 受不了暑热的我,来到渭水河道散步纳凉。咸阳湖美丽的南岸公园和自然的河道里,纳凉的… 爱情情故事 爱人去世,相爱的人…

Just for the good man, drinking poisonous wine with smile.

Love is a put quality before quantity thing. Although it will never owe anyone, with it, we should treat it wholeheartedly. Without it, we should be safe and comfortable alone. Love is not passive slack, but accumulation of strength; It is not wandering and hesitating, but keeping a low profile. The only measure that can measure it is whether you can be happy. Happiness is like wearing shoes, and the tightness is self-evident; Happiness is like drinking water, know whether it is cold or warm by oneself. This is happiness. The sublimation of lovers into friends is another result of happiness. However, love is reduced to friendship, and emotional contact is just another kind of loneliness. Meeting is a kind of fate. What you deliberately pursue may not be available for life, but the brilliance you have never expected will come unexpectedly in your indifference and ease. You never know what you will get or lose in the next second, so it is just like a child protecting his toy, holding it tightly. I am really tired, but I am afraid that if I let go, the loss will be unbearable. Love may make you at a loss, make you jealous and angry, and make you sad and cry. But in the end, it is warm, can enter the heart, and can make you laugh and drink doves. Perhaps it is better to meet. Only when you leave from my memory can I be free. When I meet, I will not think nonsense and the dusty memory will not turn yellow gradually. Or maybe, it’s better not to meet. If you don’t meet, you will always be the way you were at that time. The sea is in full swing, the years are flowing, and the rosewood is not destroyed. You will still be my beloved person. There will always be people who say that they are used to loneliness. Loneliness is just the shadow of disappointment. Where will people like loneliness, but they don’t like disappointment. Love is like a gamble. How can I let you lose if you bet on your happiness? Unfortunately, I am not the banker you like. You would rather lose your money than believe the happiness and life I give you are betting everywhere. Just like me now, I put all my chips on my expectation of you. I have a good life, not bad, not surprised, not happy, not surprised, not like before, afraid of being robbed, just like now, I returned you, such a life, sure enough, not bad. I am now like standing on the coldest North Pole. Life will not be more desperate. No matter where I look, as long as I am in my sight, there are warm spring flowers everywhere. This kind of life, is it the legendary masochism or the legendary happiness, and there is no consciousness again or earlier. In addition to breathing and body temperature, it is no different from a corpse. I am not coquettish, not attacking my scheming. People say that such a girl is just right, but I have to say that such a girl is just right to make people hate. On the way to happiness, it was already crowded, and I only had to detour. Don’t be arrogant, don’t be arrogant, don’t dump, don’t be humble, don’t rely on, don’t be jealous. I gradually found that only in this way can I really want to be myself. Most of the time, we are just blinded by our persistent obsession and cannot see our original self clearly. As everyone knows, the original self will also live brightly. No one can stop the meeting and separation between one person and another, just like the button rolling under the sofa, suddenly falling into your eyes when you think you are about to forget, you call it happiness. If you think this is what you want, you have been waiting for it. Then hold it tightly, not like the quicksand between your fingers, watching it fade away slowly. Just for the good man, drinking poisonous wine with smile. Zan (prose editor: Yue ran) Phoenix mountain spring outing After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon… Enter June In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we… Linjia Lane Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city… Linjia Lane Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city… The confusion of summer night I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool… Love story Lover dies, lover…

Smoke

21 in recent days, people have changed, become haggard and confused. In just a few days, I was drunk twice. Facing the wine, I found that I really couldn’t control it. In ancient times, there were words to cut off the water, and the water was more flowing. Raising a glass to relieve sorrow and sorrow was more worrying. That’s the reason. When people need alcohol to anesthetize nerves, they are either overexcited or oversad. And I have both. In favorite, Li Taibai’s poems could not find out the reason. It must be that hu’er will change the wine, and the solemn and stirring of ertong’s sorrow aroused my inner resonance. Sorrow, the pain of losing your Majesty; Sorrow, the period of thinking. Yesterday, the common friends’ party with you and me felt really bad. Once, you were I am inseparable. If you had a party, you wouldn’t have attended it without the other party. And as long as you are alone, there will always be people asking me, why not forgive me?, I think the same is true for you. Nowadays, the people around have not changed. They are still fighting, laughing and scolding, but the most important thing is that you are missing. No one dares to mention you in front of me. They are afraid of destroying my young heart wall. However, I drank to relieve my sorrow, raised my glasses again and again, looked up again and again, looked around again and again, searched again and again, prayed again and again, disappointed again and again, abused myself again and again, how could I lose you?! I don’t like the love of lovers in front of my eyes any more. If I don’t believe in love, I just want to be drunk and dream to death. Will you still accompany me for a lifetime in the next life? Vomiting and vomiting, the filth I spit out is just like the so-called love I have been pursuing for so long. Today, for the first time, I taught others a tutor. Looking at the Children’s earnest work, I thought of only your vague appearance. I once worked as your full-time tutor: I rushed to the classroom before early morning self-study in order to give you some questions; Or on the phone, I only used my voice to make you understand what I mean; or on weekends, go to your home and treat the topic as an entertainment program. I really like the way you think seriously, scratching your head and turning the pen, only to know that you can’t do it, and then pulling your eyes and looking at me stupidly. I always hope you can understand. I remember asking you: why don’t you study hard?. The answer you gave me was that you were afraid of being serious and had no results. Then you would only let yourself and your parents and relatives look down on yourself. What I want to say is that everything is important in the process, and the results don’t need to be considered. No one will look down upon those who have tried hard and tried hard. Moreover, no matter what you want to do, don’t consider the eyes of the people around you. Your feelings are the most important. What others have is not what you have. You should regard it as a goal and as a motivation instead of taking it as a pressure and an excuse that you cannot stand up. I hope you can be a self-reliant person who can rely on yourself. People who strive hard and are not afraid of hardship and fatigue are all worthy of admiration and affirmation. Only in this way can they not regret it, and I, how eager you can do that. On the way home, I also saw 57 degrees Xiang, a restaurant with different flavors. You and my aunt had been there together. The furnishings inside should not change much. Go there again, who is the one with me? Maybe in this life, I dare not step into that gate again. Without you, what’s the taste of Shanzhen seafood to me? Yes, the flashy and prosperous times have become the setting for breaking up. When can the tears of infatuation take you back? 22 inadvertently, this thing has reached more than 15,000 words, and I have not found it when ten thousand words, otherwise I should commemorate the milestone again. Today, when watching the American TV series Lost, the characters Jin and Sun were a couple. At the end of the play, they were trapped in the submarine in the deep sea. However, Sun is trapped by the iron frame and cannot be separated. Seeing the water rising, Jin struggled to help Sun break free. Sun shouted again and again, asking Jin to leave and give up himself. Jin ignored it and still tried to pull the iron frame. Finally Jin decided that he could not save Sun, so he looked at her and said that I promised you that I would not let you alone again. Finally, the flowing sea water was completely filled with a small room. They hugged each other, kissed each other and accepted death together fearlessly. Yes, if you can hold your hand, why are you afraid of death? If we can go to the Yellow Spring together, how dare we die? I remember that when Titanic was released in China again, taking advantage of a rare holiday in senior three, I went to see this movie with you and your aunt. Although the movie has been seen countless times, the plot can be recited backwards. But the love between Jack and Rose is always full of attraction, let alone being able to go with my lover? I still hate aunt’s electric bulb behavior from the bottom of my heart, with a wattage of thousands. In Youjump,Ijump. It was moving. Finally, Jack asked Rose to lie on the board while she was immersed in ice water, allowing her to live well and choose death, which made her sad and tearful. When watching the movie, in the darkness in the cinema, I stared at you blankly and secretly promised: I will also be your Jack. When I walked out of the cinema and saw you and your aunt’s eyes were red, I smiled and said that you were too easy to cry, and you stared at me with big eyes. At this moment, I thought, at that time, I was also crying, because I could not be your Jack. Recently, I wonder why we can’t end up with each other? Maybe we met too early. You are still looking for the person you are destined to be, the only Jack, and I am just waiting for my Rose to appear, although I have always believed that that person is you. Aunt is still very cute, unconsciously causing me regret. How I think, when you were moved to tears at that time, holding your hand, holding you tightly and telling you, don’t worry, no matter what, there is still me in this world. Please cherish more, those who can accompany you to overcome difficulties, not those who only know to share happiness with you. You should know that those who are willing to give up their own interests to help you are the people who are most important to you. Please don’t hurt them at any time. The love I admire most must be Livetogether,diealone. 23 I heard that your classmates in high school gathered Today. They invited me to attend, but I dare not. I don’t know if you went to this party? They called me one by one and invited me, but I was timid and looked for excuses everywhere. Thinking, if you go, I will go again, it is not a big embarrassment; If you don’t go, look at the old faces, plus the familiar environment, think of you, isn’t it another great torture for me? I am in another place, with a different mood, a little concerned about you gathering on the other side of the city. Looking at the photos uploaded to the Internet afterwards, I searched hard one by one just to find you. You are always accompanied by someone, you will not know the complicated mood I was looking for you at that time. If you want to see it, you dare not see it. If you see it, you will skip it immediately. Happy but painful, your heart is very uncomfortable, but you have a faint smile on your face. I have never complained about myself, because you deserve it. In the end, I didn’t see you clearly. What comes next is a burst of depression. Because you didn’t go, your classmates can’t know whether you are doing well or not. Therefore, I can’t get any news about you from them either. How are you? It is a question that I have asked myself for tens of millions of times. No voice can answer myself. Except praying, there is nothing else I can do. Maybe, you didn’t go, just when I should go. Explain me and you responsibly to everyone, because too many people who know us tell me that they can no longer believe in love. This is my new responsibility. I still believe in love, believe in you, but hate myself. The former campus is the place where you and I grow up. Today’s campus is only the place where I think hard. 24 listening to lyric music, staying in a light room, sitting on the bed, ticking on the keyboard has become my habit before going to bed. If I don’t write down the thoughts I miss you all day, I will toss and turn around regularly in bed, and it is difficult to fall asleep. Thinking about you is a habit, writing about you is a habit, loving you is my habit. My tutor’s student is a little girl. She is in the fourth grade of primary school. Her mind is just like you, stupid, silly and lovely. I always repeat a question many times. Maybe she still doesn’t understand it, so she will raise her head and look at me like a prayer. That moment immediately brought me back to the past. I don’t know if the little girl realized my loss at that moment. I don’t know if you suddenly remembered each other like me at that moment. There is no light in my eyes and no one in my mind. This is the most perfect description for me in the past four months. I always say your name in my mouth, maybe I am praying that you can appear in front of me in the next second. Love goes deep, and I find you in every corner of my life. I am a person who loves to walk, the so-called walk, is to walk aimlessly, not as leisurely as walking, and not as hurried as galloping. Just walking, walking, thinking, complaining about the world, celebrating yourself and thinking about you. You used to walk with me, didn’t you? I remember that at the end of a semester in high school, I didn’t know how we had a whim and said we were going back, but I knew that I just couldn’t bear you. Although home and school are in the same city, they are also one end and one end. I remember that when I went halfway, my feet were numb and my heart still wanted to stick to it. After all, we gave up. Our family is too far away, just as our hearts are too far away at this time. Every time we go home in senior high school for three years, we all go a long way first and then get on the bus. Every time we go home, we have to be late and late. A reluctant sentence is the explanation for all this. Every time you are in a bad mood, I will accompany you from here to there. Even if you don’t talk, I will definitely hold your hand. Your sadness, your tears, what I fear most is that I cannot share with you. Beside the school, there is a big park, do you know? I have countless footprints in that park. I am a person who likes to use running or walking mentioned above to solve the depression in his heart when he feels pressure, or when he faces difficulties and worries. Senior Three is the period when I have the strongest goal in my life but feel the most pressure. When my family, teacher, even you, inadvertently say something or do something that makes me feel stressed, I will come to the park alone, run or walk around the lake in the park. When I see green trees walking by, when I see the sky in the distance is so blue, when I see the ripples of the lake, I will know that I can’t fall down, I have to work hard, I have to move forward. My shoulder is the expectation of the teacher, the trust of my parents, and the future of you and me. You always say, I don’t care about you, actually not, I think, even if I am inseparable at this moment and take care of you, can you be together forever? I know that if you want to be the only one of the other party, at least you have to have that qualification, which can not be achieved by any pledge of eternal love. You see, didn’t you choose to leave me because there was a better person than me? I think too much, you just need to be alone, and the person who accompanies you doesn’t matter whether it is me or not. Choosing me is my blessing, giving up me is your freedom. How I hope that one day, when I walk, my hands can be held up. When I turn my head, what I can see is your still smile. 25 The long-lost gathering made me tired, but my heart was very happy and satisfied. The students came from thousands of miles away to meet again and get together, as if not long ago. Everyone came to the school together, visited the teachers, and talked about the new environment, new understanding and new life with the teachers and students. The familiar environment is still a familiar group of people. I am really happy to have such an experience for my life and such an inseparable group of people. However, is it just my loneliness that comes together? In my high school, you and I are the leading role. Who can replace your position? So, then it is excitement, then it is happiness, without you, those are just the illusion floating on the surface of me. We had dinner in a restaurant not far from the school. Every time we went home, I and you would pass. Then I went to a KTV to sing songs. In that KTV, we once sang love songs. Walking through the supermarket, I filled my stomach in KFC on the way. The familiar scenes could no longer show the figure of two people, and it was only me who was crazy about fantasy and pursued the footprints of the old days. You are a person who loves fast food. KFC is your favorite. If you can get a toy with fast food, you will be excited. Do you still remember Xiao Qi? Those lovely little cats. In order to make up four, we have searched several KFC, and even I specially asked my friends who worked in KFC. As a result, I didn’t help you fulfill your wish until the end, and it was also a failed promise, which was just as imperfect as us at the end. Is that cute little Qi still on your backpack? When you walk in life with a bag on your back, can you accidentally see it and remember the years we used to have? At the end of the party, I sent a female classmate to the railway station. It was still that bus. The actions of waiting for the bus, getting on the bus, putting coins and so on are all so similar. Only when I sat down and turned to look at you did I realize that there was no you beside me. The air in the carriage is still so stuffy, and the scenery outside the window runs away in a hurry as before. I am still the one who thinks about you, but what is most important to you is the few beside me. I went to the railway station again. The place where I was reluctant to part with you at that time was still decorated and noisy. The back of your departure is a dark cloud that I can’t wipe away from my mind, and a stone carving that time can’t wash away. A train sent the distant tourists back to their hometown here, but mercilessly sent the lover’s thoughts to another place. Isn’t the rumbling train sound the heartbeat of others? Can the far away train carry my miss for you at this time? I once wrote a few words for you: with the king, how many buildings are in the smoke and rain, why is it pleasing to the King? In the period of being a king, there is no choice but flowers bloom and fall. How can you solve your worries? I swear with the King that the wind blows and tears down. May The King accompany me! The beautiful weather of that year was a memory I couldn’t let go of all my life. Zan (prose editor: Ke Er) Phoenix mountain spring outing After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon… Enter June In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we… Linjia Lane Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city… Linjia Lane Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city… The confusion of summer night I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool… Love story Lover dies, lover…

Love shock wave

Tonight/You Leave Quietly/Let the city in the cold winter/look clear and cold/the street lamp of the Zhan Zhan/set off a long and eventually ending love journey/faint/flashing slightly light/again A dark night/makes love true and intentional/turns into cold current and pain under the night/only then can you understand/this city with changing emotions/never changed/unconsciously/has reached a warm place/Here is the last pure land/no dispute with the world/no suspicion and sadness/The night is really long/let people who don’t understand the world/begin to understand/The night is really short/Let the dawn come/Will forget instantly/Even if there is a feeling of being hurt/it will slowly dissipate/Tomorrow/I walk calmly/Let the brand-new affection and love/become prosperous/a piece of white clouds/outline a beautiful and beautiful picture unspeakable picture scroll of Heaven/Slowly Coming/the wonderful movement from the sounds of Heaven/It is really a sunny world/It makes sincerity and heart-to-heart/it becomes happiness and happiness in the dawn/it is only now that you understand/this emotion the changing city/will also change/unnoticed/close to the warm lake/The elves holding hands heaven and earth/grasping fate/no longer lost and pessimistic/This day is really long/Let the first understand the world people/Vivid Colors/this night is really short/when Black comes/still slowly intoxicated/even the indulgence of love/will slowly dissipate/ Zan (prose editor: Ke Er) Phoenix mountain spring outing After dressing up at Meiko and changing into an organic glass button suit, the hour hand of the wall clock at home has pointed to nine o’clock. I cross it with noon… Enter June In the singing of summer cicada, in the intoxicating evening breeze of summer, we walked into June together again. Entering this memory, we… Linjia Lane Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city… Linjia Lane Once in Linjia Lane, I passed by Yibin, because I needed to stay in Yibin for nearly 5 hours to transfer to a plane, because I was not familiar with this city… The confusion of summer night I couldn’t stand the heat and came to Weishui River for a walk to enjoy the cool. In the beautiful South Bank Parklands of Xianyang Lake and the natural river, it is cool… Love story Lover dies, lover…